Epic Of Ice Dragon: Reborn As An Ice Dragon With A System

Chapter 22: I Don’t Want To Be An Edgy Character, I Swear!

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I walk through the snow at a good pace, although my stomach already begins to rumble.

I quickly eat some snow and it shuts up.

Yeah, the good ol' trick of eating snow to appease my hunger, even after evolving it works wonderfully.

Now, as I walk around, I began to think about what I should do with my life.

Aside from surviving!

I should really look for some kind of civilization, maybe.

But can I even fit in one?

I mean, I was a former human, and even as a Dragon I have intelligence and thoughts, I doubt I can live in solitude for the rest of my life.

…It would be honestly depressing. The most uptodat𝓮 n𝒐vels are published on n0velbj)n((.))co/m

Life is enjoyable when you have those you love around.

Emotional pillars are essential for my own sanity, which is slowly fading away with every day…

But if I find civilization or some kind of people or talking monsters… what do I do?

If they are nice to me, I can be nice to them too, right? I don't like to be overly aggressive without any actual reason.

But if they try to attack me because I am a monster… well, I might freeze a few and then run away, perhaps.

Well, depending on how aggressive they are.

Or if they are simply scared and don't attack me, I might just go away without doing anything to them.

I mean if I am going to be aggressive against them I have to justify it!

Even as twisted as I am now, I need some justification for what I do so I don't simply become a chaotic evil asshole.

And because I am a person with emotions and this is real life and not a video game, I want to support my own emotions and sanity in beliefs and a bit of pride as well.

Attacking anything on sight is also not good unless it is a delicious prize or a nice prey and I am extremely hungry.

I am not saying that I am a pushover or something, but not being completely wild and insane doesn't mean that I am a coward, I am just… I consider myself a person, okay?

Being a monster makes me work like a monster, but what about this mind of mine? I am thinking and feeling emotions, thereby I am a person.

I cannot neglect this essential part of my very self, as I don't want to become a mindless monster.

The reason I have survived for so long is because of my intelligence above other monsters (and my cheats).

Losing that strong point of me would be terrible.

Especially in a new world filled with so many wonders and dangers.

I really want to explore this world, to find where the heck I am.

I want to know its history, its origins, what is up with monsters here, why there is magic, what kind of civilizations exist, and more.

I want to find out about what I should do, and what could be my purpose aside from simply surviving.

As a person, I have to think about these things.

I know that I said that I wasn't a person before, but that applies to… well, anyone else except my own mind, I see myself as a person, but people outside will most likely not.

And there's the big dilemma, should I hurt people or not?

I will if they attack me.

And I will not if they don't attack me.

As simple as that, seeking trouble without reason is stupid, and I might get myself chased away and killed.

Being "evil" is not my cup of tea, and I am neither a "good" person either, I am just… a normal person, although I was thrown into this body and given these cheats, I used to be a pretty "chill" guy.

I a not simply going to give a complete shift in personality and become the edgiest man alive just because I have the body of a monster…

I have to first look for what I want to protect.

Everyone in their lives always seeks something they want to protect.

Aside from our own lives, what do we fight for?

A father or a mother fights by working every day to maintain his children and his wife.

A cop works hard every day to protect people and the law (well, this varies a lot depending on how fucked up they are).

A fireman fights every day to protect people from… well, fire.

And so on.

I know this example is incredibly childish and perhaps stupid, but this is how I see things, so deal with it.

So? I want to find people to be at my side.

I am not into the whole "edge lord solo player" bullshit, and I don't think anyone can really be such a being, to begin with, anyone with intelligence is born and fated to meet people and interact with them.

I don't know what kind of setting would make a person really think that they can be alone by themselves forever, it is completely retarded.

Yes, I know that there are shady people everywhere that you shouldn't trust, but there is always someone good for 10 bad people, honest and nice persons that you can trust.

Do I sound too childish by thinking that there are brighter sides to everything?

Perhaps, but what's so wrong with it?

Do I simply want to live in a gloomy world where everyone hates me for no reason? Of course not, that's horrible.

Why should I resign myself to become a lonely loser?

The whole "OP Badass solo player" retarded crap really gets into my nerves, this setting is not simply a game, this is real life, as fantastical as it is, I can smell things, feel pain, breath, eat, and feel hunger.

I am definitely not playing a game, even with a System at my side, therefore, being that stereotype is complete and utter crap.

I will never become such a being, even if I try as hard as I can.

And if I want to find out where I am and what is even this world, I will have to eventually interact with other intelligent beings.

Exploring the world and growing stronger is a nice goal, alongside surviving, but along the way, I also want to forge bonds.

I know… it will be hard.

But I really want to believe that I can do this, I really want to see the bright side of things, even more, when I have delved so deep into the dark side of life in this new world.

But for now, I have to concentrate on the present.

As I finish my mental ramblings, I suddenly hear the footsteps of something.

I quickly hide beneath a thick pine tree, as I glance at the creature roaming around… creatures, in fact.

Three wolves are sniffing around the snow… they are all Initial Stage.

This is my chance.

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